Through our lives from a young age we’re told to make choices, what do you want to be? What do you want to study that will predetermine which path you walk? Who are you?
The thing is, even as you get older, you’re still figuring those things out. In fact, I’m pretty sure I’ve lived several lifetimes and been different people. Don’t get me wrong, at the core I’m still me. I’m flawed, I care far too much, I’m stubborn, love to learn and enjoy taking on new challenges. I’m far from perfect even when I’m trying my best. That’s just it though, I am always trying my best.
I know what I want out of life, but it’s been a continual journey. It’s been a series of ups and downs and more often than not it feels like I’m going backwards. It’s a source of massive frustration for me. I’m definitely not alone in that, getting to where you want to be in life is something that evolves as you do. The point is that you (I’m also talking to me here) have to remind yourself that most of the time there is no easy way, and most things in life worth having don’t come easily (at least that’s what I’m telling myself).
I have one serious issue. I hate sitting still for too long. I have a burning to desire to do things, learn things, try things. I often do too much which in itself doesn’t give the best results. I know that, but I still do it. I did say I was flawed. I just like to try and (where possible) use my time wisely and make it mean something. I also wear my heart on my sleeve (literally, it’s tattooed there) and have no issue expressing exactly how I feel.
The point, if there is a point to this is that you’re not alone. You’re not alone in wanting to do more, be more, and find contentment. The flip side to that is most of us are cursed. What I mean by that is we’re always looking for the next thing never stopping to appreciate what we have right now. I am definitely guilty of that. Not always, but a lot of the time. There’s that saying that you can never have everything at once and it’s true. The planets don’t align at all times, but if we have our health, we basically have it all.
The main thing is you’ve got to do you. I know it’s not always that simple but if you don’t follow your gut, instincts and wants, you’ll end up festering. That’s not living, and while we can’t live our best lives at all times, what’s so wrong with following your heart. Perhaps I’m not living in the real world, but what in the hell is that anyway? As a bit of background noise, I had one of those cheesy feel-good films on earlier where the protagonist’s life gets screwed up (if you must know it was WorkIt) and they lose it all only to come out smelling like roses at the end, would be nice if reality worked like that, eh?
Here’s to the misfits, to the ones who take the long road to get where they want to be, the ones who get back up after every down and the ones that keep on trying. I’m with you. We got this. Be thankful, humble and take a moment to take stock. In our darkest moments we have the hardest realisations. Try not to let anyone tell you who you are and what you should do, it won’t make things much easier but at least you’ll be living your life the way you intend to. Regrets and all, because that’s life and we’re all learning.